..... to be stupid. Unfortunatetly I wouldn't know. There are times when I can get crazay, yes, and ACT stupid. But deep down I am smart.
Anyways, on with my journal: People are hypocritical and ignorant and immature..... and they all are one big hypocritical ignorant and immature family. And I bet I am hypocritical and ignorant and immature sometimes but I try not to be.... but some people you just have ot wonder about.....

so things aren't going that well for me now.... no one even reads these I don't know why I even bother with it.... but here goes.
my mom leaves at 7 in the morning every day with my sister. So it's just me and my bro and my dad. My dad usually drives me to school but he said to me the night before, "I have to leave tomorrow at 6:30, i have to take a test for work. So you have to get up early enough to walk."
Though that might seem unimportant, something just popped into my head. I have never really wanted to die in my house. I didn't want my parents to be the one to find me... but if I was at school....
Anyways.... that night had been a rough one and my eyes were sore form crying and I jumped into bed grabbed my favourite notebook and scribbled out a page long note. Sufficient enough. I went to sleep. I woke the next morning and swallowed as many pills as I could bear. and i went off to school, holding the note. I could already feel the jitters creeping all over my body. But obviously i did not pass out at school and die. im still here...

today was ok, crappy, and sometimes great. Sometimes I felt sad.... and I dunno why and sometimes I was happy... thats cuz I was thinking bout the night before... (tee hee, I'm not telling) and Mingo was here. and then had to leave like half an hour later which was kinda stupid. And I feel bad about jillian.. who I really need to talk to and I know that you all care SOOOO much about my pathetic life... oh well
maybe I'll write some poetry

meow

if ever you should blame my insanity on someone... itd be my family. THEY ARE SO KRAZY. I spend waaaaayyy too much time listening to my annoying brother. Hey pancakes, you have to back me up on this one. My parents are soooo weird..... and i know everyone says that about their parents. But really i just dont get them at all.

MEOW see me chase my tail

ok.... can someone please tell me why ist here a difference between the ground and the floor... and how come in the bible it says "thou shalt not kill" yet throughout the whole damned book theres a hell of a lot of killing...